Finally was able to record this. Not sure how I feel about it though. I keep a long list of ideas for art and drafts for songs in OneNote – and the date for this one was back in 2020. OMG. I can’t believe it’s from that long ago.

Sometimes I think I should just focus on art or music, but I just can’t do it. I love both! The problem is that there’s so many things involved in each. For example, with music, just when I think I’m getting somewhere I realize that I have no idea about many things involved in it like music production for example. It’s one thing to come up with a song but that’s just the beginning! Making a good recording is a job in itself. It’s really crazy. I feel like no matter how good you are at singing, a bad recording can really take away from that. Sadly, it’s not just the push of the record button. When I first started to learn music, I really had no idea about any of this. I didn’t realize how difficult it is to just capture a voice.

While I’m aware of all this now, my priority is really just singing and playing passable piano. I really love the piano and 10 years ago I thought that’s what I wanted my focus to be. However, I know I can’t spend hours a day (just physically even) practicing. Plus, I’m not sure I want to either. I think I like the piano for accompanying my singing. And I think music is a great hobby for me. I find it so enjoyable and relaxing, but I don’t think I could ever do it professionally. It would make it so stressful.